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In Kabbalah there is a concept of creation called Tzimtzum, to put it simply it is a belief that God being a constant force, everywhere the same, could not create something separate form itself. In order to create “others” God had to create a void, a space… and into the void God projected its light which manifested reality.

I’ve thought today that the act of Tzimtzum is actually happening every time we sit in quiet contemplation. We create the void, that space, and then call out with our inner intent for the Higher Source to manifest guidance.

Without the void one would be pulled by ego, fears, worries, or the control of others. The void, that space, that emptiness, it separates us from the control and manipulation of our personal ego and the will of others in order for us to find the direct experience of personal truth..

Oneness and Individuality, Revisited

Revisiting a recent thought of mine regarding Oneness and the idea of oblivion of the Self (even the Higher Self). In reading from some Gnostic work this morning, I came across this quote:

“The great good ones dwell in peace, bringing joy to the world like the return of spring. Having crossed the ocean of the world, they ever help others to cross over. For this is the very nature of the great-souled ones (Mahâtmas)–their swiftness to take away the weariness of others. So the soft-rayed moon of itself soothes the earth, burned by the fierce sun’s heat.”

Shankaracharya. The Crest-Jewel of Wisdom (p. 11). Kindle Edition.

From this perspective those who have crossed from the world (into Oneness I presume), still retain their individual awareness, and are not lost to oblivion. Of course one could argue this is a stage along the path of transfiguration.

Dissolution of Self

Tonight in a meeting with other pupils and members we discussed the topic of the two fields of life (the perfected field and the imperfect field). I raised a question, but I’m not sure if it was relayed correctly as the discussion didn’t connect well to my intent.

My intention was to describe the idea that the ultimate goal is that we become nothing. While that might be debated, the consideration I offer to the discussion is this:

Examine a light in your room. The bulb burns so bright, but as the light energy degrades it casts less and less light, until the room has nothing but darkness. This, a metaphor for existence, showcases the idea of the Perfect world (Light source), and the imperfect world of forms. We exist in individuality, because the Light is not here in full force. If the Light of God existed in every space, a constant output of eternal power, there could be no other thing but the Light. There is no distinction, no individuality.

Therefore the quest to the One Light/Source ends with our end. No matter how we define individual – this idea of “self” is ultimately lost, as we end in a world of Deity where there is nothing but the Deity.

To be even more clear, the idea of self isn’t just the ego – it also is the Higher Nature… As the ego lets go of itself, the Higher within grows to its own potential – but it too choses to unite with Source – ultimately becoming One thing. Even the Higher Self is lost to the field of brilliance.

Or is it? Am I wrong?

I can’t say with certainty this is so, only that it is logical and reasonable based on the idea of God having no boundaries, and being all powerful… and our desire to reunite with God – the end result would be the absorption of our nature (the Highest Nature / New Man) into the Godhead.

“Gnosis is the Death of Faith…”

Before I stepped into direct perception of the mysteries – the Gnostic path of liberation, I had to understand several concepts. One of those early concepts was the idea of Gnosis and how it varies from the idea of Faith. As it turned out, I had already a glimpse of this concept from my history with Buddhism. Buddhism rejected the idea of Faith based ideology, in favor of the direct experience (Gnosis).

In a lesser known work comes this phrase, “Gnosis is the death of faith and the birth of power.” For some, calling for the death of Faith, is perhaps blasphemous. Yet when understood in the context of what Faith is, we see it is a fragile concept, easily replaced once the direct experience is achieved.

Faith Defined

Never had I thought this would be a tricky concept and yet it’s now a delicate matter to discuss. The reason for the tip toeing around the topic is that the definition of Faith from the Golden Rosycross (Jan van Rijckenborgh’s view of Faith) is quite different than that of everyone else.

Typically, Faith is defined as a belief (in fact it is synonymous with Belief) in something unseen. Whether one is Catholic, Evangelical, Muslim, Hindu or a member of a modern religion, faith is conceived in this way. One believes the doctrines, the pastor/iman/rabbi/master/guru because they have Faith in such people. They believe in the teachings because they have Faith in the ideologies from their Holy books.

Faith defined in this way is bound to error. Faith, you see, can be wrong. It was the Faith of the Catholic Church that demanded people believe the Earth was flat, or that it was the center of the solar system. My 3 year old daughter has faith in Santa Claus delivering presents on Christmas Day, while my wife has faith that Big Foot exists in the woods. The point here, is that faith may be right or may be wrong. As it is a belief, it has no special authority.

Because of this, Faith has led many to ruin. Buddhism came about because of Faith. Rather than utilize Faith in dogma, Holy Books or teachers, Buddhism taught reason and logic. But reason and logic wasn’t enough, and Buddhism expanded to include the act of Direct Experience. In Buddhism this “direct experience of emptiness” was described as the “Flash of lightning in the darkness of sky.” It is direct and immediate illumination one achieves through experience.

The Golden Rosycross on Faith

The Golden Rosycross uses the concept of Faith throughout their literature. Jan van Rijckenborgh makes great use of the word. As it turns out, their view of faith is quite different than the commonly understood definition.

Rather than faith being a starting point, a point of belief, that may turn into a direct experience of spiritual Truth, Rijckenborgh uses the concept of Faith in an almost opposite way. Rijckenborgh views faith as the acceptance of Gnosis and making this Gnosis real in one’s life.

Gnosis Defined

In my personal experience, Gnosis is like the Buddhist concept of direct perception. It is not a logical knowing, or a dogmatic faith in a truth, but a direct experience of reality (Spiritual Reality). Faith is like the man who hopes and believes God is real, Gnosis is when the man has a direct experience of God (which is often divergent from the stated dogma).

From The Chinese Gnosis, Jan van Rijckenborgh writes:

To the extent that you, too, are engaged in this process, you no longer need to waste time and energy searching for books and manuscripts on which you pin all your hopes of liberation. Tao can neither be spoken nor written. Tao, the way, the path, can only be experienced.

The Chinese Gnosis p. 16

In the quote above, the word Tao is used to express the concept of Gnosis. The Tao is not written or spoken but directly experienced. Consider this in the light of Rijckenborgh’s other work, The Universal Gnosis:

Therefore, it is out of the question that the Gnosis could be revealed as a totality and presented as a system…. The Gnosis comes to every single person in a language that can be understood by him or her; it shows the Path to everyone and is approachable by everyone through basic intelligent action.  

The Universal Gnosis, p. 15-18

This is the thread that binds the two concepts of Tao and Gnosis. Gnosis is personally revealed, not through a system or book or teaching. Instead Gnosis is understood personally in a language of the individual.

The Problem of Conventional Faith

Conventional ideas on Faith are problematic. Pure faith is uplifted and talked about as though it is a glorious thing, but what faith is in actuality is blind obedience – it is the antithesis of Gnosis.

What is faith? It is often said that faith is believing in something unseen. Meaning, you do not yet have a direct experience of the thing, the situation. You believe, you hope something to be true – but you don’t KNOW it to be true.

I would ask anyone who values faith to sit with the above paragraph for a moment. Faith is hope, it is belief, but it isn’t direct experience.

My son had faith that Santa Claus came every Christmas morning. I know people who have faith that Bigfoot lives in the woods, and I know others who have faith that UFOs are actively abducting people. Their faith is based on the stories of others passed down to them. But none of it is from direct experience. My son never directly saw Santa Claus, my friends never directly experienced Bigfoot, nor were abducted by aliens – yet they have faith these things are real. But what if they aren’t real? What if it is either the ego, or simply an error?

Conventional faith fuels the sails of many ships that crash on distant reefs.

The Solution of Gnosis

I first came to understand gnosis as a solution in 2019. I met a fellow who was a solo practitioner. He was done with organizations and told me that the most important thing to do was find truth on my own. Not by faith, but through Gnosis. But what is Gnosis?

Gnosis, Greek for wisdom or knowledge, refers to knowledge that is known directly. It is the direct experience of Truth. It is personal, and as such no one can take it from you. Others may read in a book, or quote a leader that the world is such and such, but if you have the Gnosis to know something different you can smile and nod but realize the truth within is quite different.

Gnosis is not meant to be preached to others, lest they trod upon it and push it into the mud. As Gnosis is personally revealed, it can not be taught as dogma. Each person comes to Gnosis in their own way, in their own time.

Therefore – Gnosis solves the problem of Faith. Where faith can lead people astray, into the arms of a Jim Jones or into the grip of a modern day guru, Gnosis reveals Truth through direct and individual effort. Gnosis removes the need for faith (once Gnosis of a topic is found) and from that is the power by which we can live the Truth.

The Other Faith

The unique defining element of the Golden Rosycross reveals Faith as the action of Gnosis. In this way Faith is a product of Gnosis. Gnosis coming first, faith is the act of making the Gnostic element real. What exactly does that mean? I am uncertain.

Meditation – My Perspective


As a pupil of the Golden Rosycross, I am met with various great and private lectures that inspire change and further development. There has been one element that I don’t quite see eye to eye on and that is the topic of meditation.

From the Golden Rosycross perspective (and perhaps Rosicrucians at large), there is a negative view towards any force of change on the individual. This is understandable and respectable. The point of disagreement comes from the connection of “force of change” to such things as Yoga and Meditation. Jan van Rijckenborgh (Founder of the School) felt that such things were the ego working on the ego – so that it further traps a person into the ego.

What is Meditation?

I suppose if one is speaking of a New Age form of meditation, where it’s more of a daydream – a tapestry of images about the individual ego, then yes Rijckenborgh is correct. However, my understanding of meditation is not that.

Buddhist Meditation

From the Tibetan Buddhist tradition, meditation has two components:

  • Clearing the mind of thought (creating space), by entering the present moment
  • Rationally analyzing a situation at hand

The GRC engages in the Creating Space aspect of the present moment. That part of meditation should be in harmony. Regarding rationally analyzing a situation, the Tibetan approach (and common Mahayana Buddhist approach) is (after the mind is quiet) to consider a situation. If emotion appears, it is observed and watched until it passes. One rationally ponders the problem and reviews the logical outcomes mentally, thereby understanding the truth of the situation. In time that truth builds up to where it changes an individual – where instead of reacting in anger, they remember the lessons they learned from self-analysis.


A typical Buddhist meditation on equanimity (love for all) involves mentally picturing 3 people. The first is someone you have great affection towards. The second is someone you are neutral towards. The third is someone you dislike. One considers the ever shifting changes of life and ponders the idea, “is it possible that this one, could become that one?” Is it possible that the one I love becomes someone I’m neutral to? After some analysis of what it would take to achieve that, then one ponders is it possible that the neutral person could become someone I love? Then the harder considerations: Is it possible that the one I dislike could become neutral to me? Could someone neutral to me, become someone I dislike. Through the analysis one achieves an awareness that who we like or dislike is a constantly changing thing, based on circumstances. If we reframe, or remain open towards others, we can choose to see all as those we love.

In that example, is the ego being used? In my view the answer is “no”. The ego is not active because all is happening in a space of clarity, of emptiness. Some may feel that because you are “thinking this out” the ego is involved. But I would argue that this is no different than any of Jan van Rijckenborgh’s books where he poses thought arguments. Consider pg. 37 of The Coming New Man, where he makes arguments about thoughts having substance, and therefore based on that presentation, he deduces that thoughts have power over the physical form. Is this not his use of logic, reason and thinking? Even if were to have gained this knowledge in a flash of inspiration from his Higher Self, he is reciting it to an audience in a reason/thought based way.

Also keep in mind the example of the meditation above is not fighting or attacking a character trait. Anger or resentment isn’t being attacked (thereby making it stronger), it is being observed.

Zen and Vipassana Meditation

Zen and Vipassana do not delve so much into pondering or rational thought in a mental field of created clarity. Instead, they chose a path of meditation where the mind is focused on the present moment, to such a degree that all is lost except the present moment. In that pointed concentration, a flash of inspiration (as “a flash of lightning in the darkness of sky,” as the Dalai Lama refers to it) comes to the meditator.

In a Zendo I have heard that the students star at a point on a wall, observing it without thought. As thoughts float in, they let them go, without attachment. Vipassana seeks a similar process of entering into the enterally real moment of Now, and thereby touching the true inspiration field.

Who can say that these approaches are any different than a Rosicrucian? Are they not focused on creating space? Even those that utilize rational, logical thought, this is certainly not ego driven and quite honestly the same approach we would find in a spiritual book or lecture of countless Rosicrucian schools.

I think it best to keep an open mind on these topics. Let the inner (Greater) self guide us to Truth on the matter.

Pt. III of Sept. “Reality of the New Soul”

My Notes from today’s lecture:

In what reality do we live?
How do we go beyond the limitations of the natural soul being?

We are more than our physical body, thoughts and emotions.

An awakening touch of the spiritual light reaches our receptive consciousness. All seekers have experienced this. We call it prerememberance.

Every person is ensouled – but what is the soul?
A soul is what moves us, what explains our being and our actions.
Everything contained in us is in the:

  • blood
  • consciousness
  • serpent fire
  • hormonal fluid
  • nerve fluid

Purification of the blood

Redirection and purification of thoughts and emotions and activity in daily life.

We need to allow the eternal element within us to grow. Whatever spiritual path we chose, it is an illusion to seek treasures, peace or stability in the natural self.

How to course correct? Regarding, “it is an illusion to seek treasures, peace of stability in the natural self,” – I find myself slipping into the sleep of the world from time to time. How can we strengthen the focus? By continuing the work of purification of the blood? or something more?

The connection to the eternal comes from the guidance of the Spiritual Spark within us.

Inner detachment

creating space and spiritual energy to create a new reality within us.

  • Thinking
  • Feeling
  • Acting

From the new soul.
Actual liberation is a possibility through this process.


GRC not trying to change the ego for the better, but to let go of it gradually.
through this process, the greater within us is made stronger and we rise into Oneness.
Change like this occurs with effort, but not through natural means – but intentionally (not doing): moving from head and heart into non action.

We express and live out of a new soul experience.

By maintaining the neutralization and stimulus, then a freedom will restore one pointed focus.

We must start the path in non-being, in non-reaction. In silence and detachment from delusions of the world. Refraining from judging others, criticism, etc. Self-sacrifice: doing unto others that you would have done unto you.

Entry 113: Altar of the Heart

Reading from “The Sefer Yetzirah” pg 51 (Chapter 1:6)

“Ten Sefirot of Nothingness. Their vision is like the ‘appearance of lightning.’ Their limit has no end and His Word in them is ‘running and returning.’ They rush to His saying, like a whirlwind and before His throne they prostrate themselves.”


The components of the New Man are like the 10 sephirot – clear as lightning – no obstructions. God’s word is coming through and returning back – indicating a state of perfection. The individual is One with God. The individual in humility.

To reach this state, one must clean a space. Inside their must be a space where the HS is invited in to express and live through the individual.

Need for Neutrality and Stillness

Ink Blots

Neutrality and stillness are concepts that go hand in hand. To be neutral, one has to find an inner stillness. To better illustrate the point, consider the opposite. When we lack inner stillness (angry, frustrated, agitated, desirous, etc.), that is when we attach to an outcome. This in turn tosses our nature along the ebb and flow of life. Those crests and troughs of the sea of life, cause much distress. If there’s every any doubt, just look at the world. The world is filled with political turmoil, which seeps into people. Right now another round of anger is mounting in the United States, over investigative measures of a past president. Anger and desire, on both sides, is causing people to act rashly – but worse yet, causing them to lose their spiritual center and decline into the state of natural materialism. The way out of this quagmire of life, is to find space. Inner space. For within that space (where there is no emotional cataclysm), we are free to experience the Spirit Spark of God that rests within. In this inner communion our Higher nature is awoken and realized, and this is our path of transformation. This is the hope of the Rosicrucian work. First we must find this neutrality, and second, we must listen to the Gnosis occulted within our stillness.


“Going beyond” is a path to neutrality. Consider the choice to focus on the things not of this world, so that the natural fades out of tune – becoming neutralized. I’ve had this experience several times. The first was as a Buddhist. In 2004, after taking my Buddhist vows, I began a path of conscious reflection (looking at my own nature, my own issues). I realized the truth of the teachings, that the world is more illusion than real. When a war erupted, dividing the nation, I wasn’t affected. I saw the anger on both sides as the same anger. Anger to Iraq was the same as the anger to the man attacking Iraq. One does not solve the other. This is neutrality. Those in the world do not like this type of neutrality. They will fight it, as though it is apathy. Threading that needle is a challenge, but if one were to attach with every outcome, the world will take us astray.

I reached neutrality by understanding a bigger truth: That the world is not True, it simply appears to be true. Looking for the underlying causes (karma) that paints the blankness (emptiness) of the world, I realized that each of us sees the world according to his or her own karma.

Today I could use a refresher on “going beyond,” because I’ve fallen from that state. These states are not permanent, and like a diet, can easily be lost. After I left Buddhism, I joined many other spiritual societies, but it was my fears of 2016 that caused my greatest setbacks. Instead of remaining neutral, I engaged head on. I went for the proverbial jugular of religious hypocrites. Storming their social media castles, I laid waste to their philosophies. Using their own Holy books, I proved their falsehoods. In fighting an enemy, I became the thing I never wanted to be: a man bound by illusionary nature.

In 2018 I found a way to dig myself out of the pit of despair. Spiritual paths, some a distraction, and some poignant, gave me the strength to reaffirm my motto: Union with Self. In that process I made a deep connection with the Higher Self, that so-called sleeper aspect of our inner nature. In truth I think it’s awake, it’s our consciousness that is asleep to it. As it guided my path, I let go of old relationships: physically distancing from my mother, disconnecting from negative influences were the start of a process that formed my path to seeking inner Truth reaffirmed.

Neutrality escaped me still, until I began to read and study the works of the Golden Rosycross. It was here that I found my deep resonance with my Buddhist past, bridging to the current future goal of Divine Union.

We know that ever activity is a motion of our electromagnetic field starting from our natural status. Its results therefore, can only be useful in this nature. What is the obvious thing to do now? We must stop this magnetic motion, the hunting after our desires.

The Coming New Man, pg 59

The preceding quote by author and teacher, Jan van Rijckenborgh, explains that our surrounding field has a pulling effect. This electro-magnetic feature draws to it what it is. We may think this an aspect of how our karma works. Desire influences the field, which draws more things to desire. Fear, likewise, influences the field, which draws more things to fear. To end this cycle we need to find a way to slow, or stop, the motion of the field.

When a person possessing a spirit-spark atom in his heart give-up chasing after natural things and becomes still in this sense, he will irrevocable be touched by the magnetic field of the Brotherhood.

Ibid. pg 60

The desire, once quenched, opens to the Rosicrucian work (the spiritual Brotherhood), who interact with us and create in us a new desire – which influences and creates a new field. A new cycle is born, where the field and new desire system refresh the aspirant with the Light of God, rather than the false light of the natural world.


To become neutral, one needs stillness. Stillness is an unmovable state, as the Tao te Ching describes: it is a place we hold on to the center. While the trash tornado of the world swirls around us, we just need hold on to our central pole, and let everything else fall away. That is stillness. When the IRS wants to audit, reach for the center. When graffiti invades our neighborhoods, reach for the center. When desires chase after us, reach for the center.

Some in the Spiritual School do not like the concept of meditation – for them, they see it as a process to “fix the personality,” a personality that will be discarded in the search for the True Self. It is through meditation, however, that we can find new avenues to stillness.

A Buddhist lama of mine used to tell us that we can sit here, right now and understand conceptually that the world is empty of existing one way or another… that it is our karma that colors and paints the world to be what it is, in the way we see it. Right now, in a calm, rational state, we can know the illogical and dangerous use of anger. But what happens when we’re cut off on the freeway and someone affirms the action with a middle finger out their window? Do we remain calm? In Buddhism, this person is often called the Buddha. Yeah, that mean-spirited person that cut us off and gave the finger… “it is perhaps the Buddha testing your patience, learn the lesson well,” they would say.

How does one remain still, when temptation arises? Whatever your poison is, be it news, consumerism, passion, how do you stop it when it stirs? If you desire a new car, how do you stop the desire before it consumes you? What of anger? How do you remain still when someone pushes your buttons?

The answer for a Tibetan Buddhist is Gom. The word Gom means to rehabituate the mind. Yes, we are working on the personality, but this is where we start when we are looking for stillness. If a person seeks stillness by letting go of the personality, that’s all good and well, except that they still need their personality to live in the world. So what happens when they put on their personality to go to work, and someone cuts them off on the freeway? Do they lose an entire lifetime of merit chasing that person off the freeway and ending up in jail? There’s an explosion of violence in America right now. People who never committed a crime before are committing murder, even mass murder. If you neglect the personality, you could become a statistic as well.

At some point the personality must be lost. It is the ego and the ego must be shed. Old desires, are replaced with new desires (for unity, for holiness, for God, etc.) and this in turn influences our electro-magnetic field, which brings us more experiences of the same. In time the ego itself is no longer of value as a new personality is born.

Some say, this is why we don’t work on the personality, as it distracts from the transformation. But I worry about those who suffer from anger, desire and other maledictions. What shall they do? An alcoholic needs to do something more than pretend they are at a state they are not currently at (i.e. non-ego). Likewise, the angry person must do something to tame the anger.


Tibetans refer to meditation as Gom, a way to rehabituate the mind. That the mind operates from memory, from past experiences, and often disengaged from reason. To establish reason, one mentally ponders situations and considers why they occur. “What is the cause of these two people I saw fighting? What karma created the first person? What karma created the second person?” Such contemplations often lead to conclusions of rationality.

To further rehabituate the mind, people may dwell upon a problem (such as anger) and consider the damage it does. It can hurt people physically, emotionally and it can destroy the angry person’s spiritual journey. Mentally framing situations of anger, and then affirming new ways of dealing with those situations creates new choices for the mind. The natural mind now has better opportunities to react differently.

“But this is work on the personality,” some may say, and they’re right. For some work on the personality is a taboo as it leads to fixing a thing that isn’t eternal. They would prefer to put their focus on working towards the eternal. But like a baby, who first needs to stand before it can walk, sometimes we must fix a manifested problem in order to clear the way for our spiritual progress.

Creating Space Directly

Meditation is also the process by which we focus the mind upon a thought, or non-thought, in order to hold a state of stillness. Some meditate upon a riddle (such as the Zen Buddhists), while others meditate upon non-thought (such as Mindfulness meditators). This creates direct space.

Looking at a garden, or at nature… washing dishes… pouring tea… these are all examples of behavior that can lead to stillness, as long as the mind is focused upon the work to the point of removing all distraction.

One teacher of meditation would say, “think of your thoughts as a gopher poking its head out of a hole. Now observe the hole with all your focus, and note the next thought.” It’s surprising how the next thought doesn’t come! That is, until we grow weary and turn our attention away. But this is the work of achieving non-thought, which in itself leads to inner stillness.

Some meditate upon spiritual texts. A Rosicrucian may read and contemplate the words of the Rosa Mystica, the Tao te Ching, or the Bible.

Others find stillness in focusing on the Greater Aspect. Be it God, or conceptualizing the unreality of the world. Such things externalize the world to be seen in a proverbial test tube, making it less impactful upon our nature.


Without stillness and neutrality, we will be pulled like tattered boat on the waves of a harsh ocean. We certainly reach peaks, but each peak has an equal extreme trough. In time the boat will be lost, and soon we feel we are drowning. The way through this is to let go of attachments, seek neutrality in all things, and walk towards inner stillness. However you feel stillness can be best cultivated in your life, do it. It’s the key to all future gain.

Changed: In the Twinkling of an Eye

A Rosicrucian isn’t expected to work on their personality. Unlike some paths where the personality is shifted from a negative trait to the positive, the Rosicrucian is seeking to let go of the personality altogether. In this transmutation they achieve a Oneness with the Greater aspect that is asleep within themselves.

Recently I found myself in a shouting fit. I was yelling at someone who aggressively approached me. Afterwards I felt ashamed. I apologized to the person, but the verbal damage was done. In the time since I’ve tried to understand what led me to that outburst.

The Situation

Analyzing the situation of my outburst I recognized I was under stress. I needed help, and the people who normally are there were either not there or unresponsive to what I thought was an obvious need. I was caught up in my own selfish need to eat a snack, and each time I started to eat, I was interrupted by a problem. After 3 times, I lost my temper and began to vent. That’s when someone aggressive shouted at me that they were coming. The aggression added to my anger, and I began shouting at them.

After talking with the recipient of my anger, they confided that their own outburst wasn’t directed at me, but was a vent of their own stress (caused by me). In other words, I was stressed, and my stress spread to others around me. They reacted, and then I reacted to them. Anger, in this situation, was like a virus spreading and bouncing off one another. Had I understood his outburst, I wouldn’t have reacted like I did.

Change in the Twinkling of an Eye

This morning I was still considering my outburst. Sitting down in my own quietude, the words from the Bible came to mind, “changed in the twinkling of an eye.” The reference for this is 1 Corinthians 15:51-52:

 Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

1 Cor. 15: 51-52

What is asleep is our inner Higher nature, the Spirit Spark, that essence of God. Our carnal essence runs our life without spiritual intervention. The great news is that change doesn’t take years, but can come in an instant (the twinkling of an eye).

This change is the shift between the natural self and the Spiritual Self. Where the dead (or asleep) aspect of our spiritual self is awakened and our transformation is complete.

That doesn’t mean it happens on its own. Change must occur with an effort, but the effort is not through natural means. It is in the “holding to center,” the “quietude of mind.” In other words it is through self-surrender, humility, putting others first, letting go of my needs – through this effort that transformation can begin.

The Work of Change

In Dei Gloria Intacta the aspects of needed change are identified for mental freedom.

If the pupil is only able to maintain the neutralization of his desires long enough, thereby rejecting all metaphysical and philosophical speculations, the freedom of his thinking factuality will be gradually restored…

Dei Gloria Intacta p. 52-53

Reading further, the author writes about the necessity to give up the ‘I’ – that renunciation of the self. This is also the path of the east.

Renunciation starts by cultivating the motivation to put effort, concentration, and mindfulness toward the release of our attachments to the deceptively attractive aspects of life that, despite being the source of predictable dissatisfaction within our lives, we somehow still manage to mindlessly gravitate toward anyway: anger, talking behind peoples’ backs, and alcohol are common enough examples of catalysts that frequently get people into unwanted/unintended situations.

In the work of Dei Gloria Intacta (pg. 54), the author continues from the theme of the pupil gaining freedom in the thinking faculty. He writes about the different spheres and how our change, creates change in the esoteric aural sphere about us. This draws more Light, which changes the tone of our being. By increasing the Light of God in our lives we attune to the respiration field around us, to a higher vibration.

If the pupil succeeds in freeing his thinking faculty from the blood by means of the fundamental change, the Christ will likewise touch him in freedom from the blood. The mind, as the gateway to omniscient spirit, will awaken…

Dei Gloria Intacta p. 54

Process of Patmos

The mind must undergo the change of quietude, and renunciation of desire. Remaining calm and neutral creates change in our aurial sphere and our respiration field also changes. The vibration or subtle spiritual changes that we undergo by changing our thoughts, will draw in more Light.

In the solitude of this process (Patmos) the mind after many wanderings and peregrinations at last receives an impression from its True Lord. The Johannine man meets the Heavenly Man. If the pupil walks this path, if he carries through this process of self-revolution, ‘bearing record of the Word of God and of the testimony of Jesus Christ’, then for him the first chapter of the Book of Revelation is written.

Dei Gloria Intacta p. 55

And this process, through personal Patmos, renunciation and other work, can create change in the Twinkling of an Eye – the timing of such transformation is unknown by any man. It comes when things are ready, but we must stay true to the path.

What is Truth?

Visiting my mother recently she was discussing current events and she asserted that it’s hard to know what “truth” is these days. It’s a common thing that I hear online and now within my own family. As a religious woman I would think my mother would know what truth is. Pilot asked this question of Jesus (John 18:38), evidence that this is a long standing question.

Why does the Question on Truth arise?

People often avoid truth when it is inconvenient. When the truth hurts, when the truth betrays our sense of direction, then truth is misidentified as something nebulous and unknown. It takes away the sting that we were wrong, that our misdirection was a failure no our part.

There are numerous people, on either side of a political spectrum, that champion a candidate. When the candidate fails in a great way, they shrink back to “who knows what really happened? Who knows the truth?” Despite mounting evidence (video and otherwise), they will continue to pitch the idea that truth is is elusive, thereby granting a reprieve from self-judgement.

Truth is Always Here

In John 8:31-32, Jesus says, “….If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” But this is itself easily misunderstood and turned into a platitude. There have been many (millions) that believe the truth of God points to a person in this world – a president, senator, or new law. They look to the world to institute their truth. But this is not truth, this is manipulation of the world.

Truth is beyond the ebb and pull of the world’s energies. The world constantly wants us to engage in a way of anger, lust, fear or worry. These strong emotions hold us in the world, and as long as we are held within the world, we can not escape the gravity of materialism.

While truth is always here, abiding in the spirit of the True Christ, it can only be realized (understood) when the noise of ego has subsided. The “noise of ego,” is our natural mind, filled with its fears, worries, and desires.

To Know Truth, is be Quiet

The natural mind is filled with the noise of fear, worry, anger, hate, lust, and desire. These words may sound extreme, but in our day to day life they may manifest in very subtle ways. The desire to overeat a meal, or the silent anger one might feel at watching news. Anger at the death of civilians in a war, or the stress that our family and friends may share with us, are all aspects of our natural mind. In the least, the natural mind attempts to see life through the lens of dialectics – the lens of duality.

The idea of duality is discussed at length (in poetic form) through the work of the Tao te Ching. “Being and non-being create each other. Difficult and easy support each other. Long and short define each other. High and low depends each other. Before and after follow each other.” (chp. 2) The message of the Tao te Ching is that while the world appears to be in a state of duality, the spiritual seeker is always seeking to remain centered so not to be pulled to and fro in the natural mind, “Therefore the Master acts without doing anything, and teachings without saying anything. Things arise and she/he lets them come; things disappear and they let them go. They have but don’t possess, they act but don’t expect. When their work is done, they forget it. That is why it lasts forever.”

If that seems a bit esoteric, just consider the practicality that in the silence of thought there is what remains. What remains is the Spiritual truth. When we give up our ego, our arrogance, our need to be right; when we surrender to the Spiritual realm, letting go of this world, then truth arises.

All too often people confuse their ideas with that of God. They say, “God wants us to take the land of the people over there,” killing and destroying as they go. But is that God? They say, “God wants us to stop the cruelty to others, so we must engage in a war,” but is that God’s will? Some say today, “God wants us to vote for a politician of a certain political part,” but is that God’s choice? Isn’t it oddly convenient that the “will of God,” aligns to the will of the men proclaiming the will of God?

The way to truth is through the daily dying to our natural mind. To where we can spot and feel our inner desire, wants and needs to be made manifest. Then in the spotting, we reject those natural desires, sit in the space of mental quietness so the Spiritual direction may manifest.

Truth is always known. Truth is always with us. We just need to silence our nature to hear it.